So God threw me another challenge! I have changed jobs, changed my outlook on friends, changed the way I live (not forgetting; where I live), changed my attitude to family, and changed the way I look at my life... Phew!!! All this in a matter of months!
I knew that '08 was going to be one of those change years and here I am on the threshold of the first quarter with a totally recharged, rehashed life-makeover!What's amazing is that I got it for free ![]()
It hasnt been easy... no pain no gain... remember? Anyways, life took me through a series of incidents, good and bad and some even frightful to get to the state that I'm in today. I'm not saying that I completely enjoy the new me and the new life but I know one thing and that's that I am really not alone in my exciting journey... have you ever just so totally trusted someone to the point that you could fall back just knowing that there's someone there to catch you? Well that's what I did - fell back, eyes closed, smile on my face in complete abandonement to God. So there began my life of total and absolute dependence.
Like I said there were scary moments when I even thought my life was threatened but then nothing ever happened; and that my friends, is my Lord... There were times when I thought I would just quit my job and then miraculously after a sorrowful sob and a quick heart wrenching prayer, things would be ok... how my mother would put me into emotional blackmail.. and then I'd get frustrated and angry and then just pray for her... she would change overnight...and today I realised that I might be entering into a whole new phase in my life (which I wont tell you just yet) ![]()
People be amazed at how God works in you - its a worthwhile 'experiment' and one with no side effects or sudden explotions! Total submission is never easy or seemingly possible but faith the size of a mustard seed is enough to move a mountain.. that I have done and wow - its the greatest feeling of liberation I have ever known!
