Unfortunately, getting stressed for me is a pastime! I know that a lot of you might think its a 'female' tendency but whether it is or not I have it and I dont like it!
Yesterday a colleague of mine who recently left the organisation said that we might close down very soon. BOOM!!!! That was it - the stress wheels got straight into action, emitting all sorts of scary possibilities - one thought that flew across my mind was that I would be plunged into abject financial doom till forever!
I immediately got on the internet and started to scout job sites and got my self into a ridiculous whirl! I thought listening to music would calm me down - but all I could think of was not being able to pay off the lease on my car and having to move back to my mother's house!
With logical thinking completely out the window I decided to go for a good hour of kick boxing. With what I thought were my frustrations completely kicked out with a vengeance I actually felt better. Only to find that I had an incredibly restless nights sleep.
Whoever said things are always better the next morning; was actually right! As a practice - I have to begin my day with God and whilst reading today's bible verse God reminded me of the time Jesus was on a fishing boat on the sea of Gallilee when harsh winds started to rock the boat which was getting filled with water. Panic stricken fishermen quickly awoke Jesus who simply held out His hand over the water and asked it to calm down... As simple as that...
With Jesus every storm is a storm in a tea cup - left up to me its a virtual tidal wave! After Jesus had calmed the seas He asked the fishermen if they had any faith at all; they were stunned amazed that a mere man could even control the seas. Left alone we cant, but in Jesus' Name we can. I transferred this scenario into my situation and felt like a complete heel! I had to go back to my confessions of faith to realise who and what God is it to me. I had to repent and ask for renewed blessings this morning - How blessed am I to sit on the lap of my Father in heaven and pour out all my worries to Him and know that He will make me ok again.
Faith is knowing that with Jesus no matter what the situation is He only has your best interests at heart - and He is faithful...
